Last night I emailed Pat (my gender neutral pseudonym for the questioning wardmember). Pat’s question had been: why did I leave the church in the first place? I hacked on the keyboard, generating three or four screens of bulleted reasons. My list had collected really esoteric tidbits about Fanny Alger, Elkenah, Zelph, Kinderhook, Psalters, Haplogroup X2a, Chakras, and the more common ones some members have heard about. It’s a protracted list that’s taken me over five general conference cycles to accumulate. I was about to paste the mega-clipboard into an email for Pat, but stopped myself. Pat’s email was short and to the point. I should be too.
me: I couldn't keep having faith in fundamental claims that have clearly contrary evidence and facts.
That is all I sent. That was late last night. Then I received another one-line reply from Pat just a moment ago:
Pat: What facts and evidence have you found?
Now here is where I am torn. I could go back and paste that bucket-o-facts to know before you die, or I could simply send the link MormonThink to Pat. Most of my list items have links to MormonThink already. However... There’s a problem...
I don’t want anyone I meet in person to know I’m associated with, let alone managing editor at, MormonThink. I don't even want Pat to find it serendipitously -- It could get me in a sort of pickle and cut short my church activity.
What to do, what to do. Suggestions?
Roots go deep if branches reach up.
(Oahu, HI, 2008)